Day One (or Starting Over)

So. Here I am. Months of depression have taken their toll on me, mostly on my psyche. But outwardly, physically, these months have manifested themselves in the form of...oh, 15, 20 extra pounds on my once trim frame. Aside from the medical aspects of that, the shame and embarassment of looking this way has finally become too much to bear. Today I started the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred workout dvd. .............and it kicked. my. ass. Its a 20 minute total workout, done in 3 levels - beginner, intermediate, and advanced. I, like a good girl, did the beginner. By the time I was done, my arms and legs were both like strands of cooked linguine, and I was sweating like crazy. I've stopped and began again on my walking/running more times than I can count the last 3 months. First it was 'I don't have time to get to the gym', which lead to 'I can go walking like I used to'...that led to 'I don't want anyone to see me like this' (and believe me, if I could get out of going to work until I trim back down some, I would). This is 20 minutes....TWENTY! of my day, in my home, where no one can watch me. Ahhhhhh. I think this is gonna work out (no pun intended) just fine =0) Post Log. Yeah, this Jillian thing....? GREAT workout...as long as the meds you are on don't derail your willpower >:0