Rainy Wednesday

Yes, dear peeps, I am still here. I can FINALLY access this from work again, which is where I did most of my previous blogging while eating lunch or waiting for reports to print.

I have to say that its been a damn crappy week. One friend lost his home in a fire, another lost his life; I'm depressed and angry as hell, but not sure who I'm mad at exactly. The world at large I guess ((shrug)). The friend who is now sans abode has been having a rough time as of late; this fire forcing him out of his house makes me wonder if it may be too much for him to take. Leading to the same result as my friend who lost his life. At his own hand. Its been coming for a while, I think, but it still leaves a big hole in the hearts and lives of those who knew and loved him, most of all his family. Suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness. I know he couldn't help it but still. I was looking forward to seeing hin this weekend ((sigh))it sucks bookoo. And to top it off I'm having a major "fat" day. Why do I bother to go running? I'm still fat (no, rationally I know I'm not, but the jeans are a little snug today, the belly is still flabby and I have to stop comparing me today to me a year ago...thin, in great shape, and flat stomach) Its raining, work has been excruciatingly slow for the past week and all I really want to do is go home, put on my pj's and crawl in bed.

I hope the rest of you are having a much better week. And no rain.